christmas :)

yeah. tonight is christmas eve :) can't wait.

I do LOVE christmas. yes, I really do.
but I don't know. this christmas I feel nothing. not like years ago.
even I almost forgot tonight will be christmas eve. for sure, I really love christmas eve since I was a kid. but I don't feel that feeling anymore. and I don't know why :(

tomorrow will be the big day. my curch make a christmas eve celebration. and I'm a part of it. I'm singing on the choir. ihiy!
but I don't know. I still feel nothing.
my christmas spirit has been gone.
I do not like this.for sure. but I don't know what should I do :(

btw, I used to believe that christmas always has a miracle.
miracle of christmas
yeah, It always bring me new hope. new expectation.
too many problem I've been trough in one year, and when christmas comes, I feel like I have a new hope. even I thought I won't have any expectation again.

and now.
I have many wish
you can say it as my grown up christmas list maybe :) it's like a song, you know :p
I wish I can live happily ever after,I wish every problem I have can be solved, I wish my friend,lover,and family will always be happy, I wish this world become a peacefully and full of love world.
but it's just a wish. maybe for some ppl do not believe with christmas miracle. but I do believe.
because christmas exists because of JESUS CHRIST that come to this world to give us expectation. to live. to love. and to trough all of our problems :)

btw, there some things that I LOVE much about christmas.
yeah. for example,
I love the tree. christmas tree. and the lights on that tree. it's just.......amazing!
I do love the food :p at christmas, my family has a ritual, that we have to go to some place. like our family houses for say merry christmas and having a nice time together. and I always go to my grandma's house. and my aunt who cook for christmas is just a wonderful chief ! I love her food :)
I LOVE the sale. yeah. every girls love that. year end sale everywhere. christmas sale everywhere. like it !
and a lot of things that I like. but I can't tell it one by one in here. because it's toooo many to be explained :p


btw, do you like christmas?